Innerpeace

Finally blogging..in a rather bad mood though. Just downloaded quite a few photos into my com desktop but when i open the folder,no pictures are to be found. Pictures are damn important to me lo..so damn irritated and sad that I lost them ok!! Important pictures taken during the Toni&Guy show..which might be my one and only experience there..my first experience at go-karting in Malaysia with tian and friends too..argghhhhh so pissed to think abt the photos now. Spoil my night.

Anyway have not been blogging much cos I'm hardly at home and too bad I'm an early sleeper..usually head straight to bed once i'm home. Have been coming home later n later these few days, thankfully I'm able to escape my parents once or twice..N it's only like night outs after work to the movies or hanging out with tian's friends at homes..can't imagine if i actually go clubbing..maybe my dad won't allow me home anymore haha. Life's been good..i'm very happy most of the time be it at work or home or with tian. Have been spending a lot of time with him these few months I realised..N i was just thinking..how did our paths actually cross..who actually made our paths cross..is it God. It's just that I was in one of my self-reflection state and realised how tian is so important to me and that I really don't think I can ever live life without him. He has come into my life in a huge way and did so many things just to make me happy and more comfortable. I look forward to many more happy years with him..n really have to thank God for letting our paths cross.

We're rather busy with work in the office these few weeks and for the month of May. Time's going to pass very fast n I'm certainly looking forward to many events this month. Outside work, I've recently caught Kingdom of Heaven and House of Wax. House of Wax was an interesting show though it had a slow start to it. Scare factor was alright..lowered by the fact that there were some irritating groups of girls screaming away for NOTHING in the cinema..seriously!! Good plot about the 2 disturbed brothers with an obsession with wax..serious mental problem. Kingdom of Heaven was disturbing with lots of killings and blood..heads rolled and pple with spears right through their heads..all for the religious war. It's a very long movie about the crusades..2 groups of pple fighting to protect their religion when what i really think they want is land and power. Orlando Bloom is again taking away a queen..alike in Troy haha. I'm looking forward to more blockbusters which are due in May..haha May's a happening month with many holidays and great movies.

My Medicine interview went fine, the whole experience was much better than my dentistry interview. first group of senior doctors asked a lot of questions related to squash then turn it into medical questions. haha good questions though I didn't expect them but I think my answers were fine cos they didn't pick and criticise my replies. They were so serious-looking though..the girl before me came out looking rather traumatised. 2nd group consisted of 2 younger doctors and a medical student, a girl called wendy ngiam. She looked so sweet that she sort of made me more at ease. haha she was the last to ask me questions and even said sorry for asking more than 1 question!! Anyway I thought I could have done better in my 2nd interview..did a bit of reflection after the interview after reporting to tian, his mum and my mum. Realised I missed out many important points and that I could have done a better job to make an impression. Don't really care now..the doctors may think i'M fine and 200 other pple may also be fine to them. So how exactly are they gonna choose excuse me..the whole process is quite screwed up anyway..i think it's all down to luck now. I'll let my fate come upon me.

Somehow I can't wait for my future to happen..the doctors asked me..are you sure you're ready for a life as a female doctors..with all the long hours of work and responsibilities that i'd have to bear. Seriously I can't wait..Can't wait to wear the white coat..can't wait to challenge myself with the job. N I also can't wait to get married once I finish my medical studies..that'll be at 25. Hahah i think i'll scare off guys. I've practically planned out my life.

Had a great time catching up with the class yesterday at Swensens..met my usual girls brenda, pam, belle, christine, jen, nita n hauwan..xinyee's down with rashes n sarah!! you're missing again!! tracy n amanda didn't turn up too..well..i'm proud to announce that jen's a sph scholar..pan's an MOE scholar (mind you, with 2 As ok..how powerful is that!! but she has a merit for s paper..haha)..n christine is an A* scholar!!! look at that!!! how powerful la..sheesh they're gonna appear in future years' scholars' choice haha and all those guide books on scholarships. I was joking with jen that she's gonna be the next Chua Mui Hong (did i spell her name correctly haha)..but she said she's not interested in politics..so can't be a senior political correspondent or sth. haha So now the girls are choosing which schools to go for their overseas education..while pple like me have to patiently wait for a school in Singapore to accept me. Watching my high-flying classmates..I secretly wonder if I can ever be like them if I was not interested in Medicine. Do I have any scholar quality in me? Can I actually become a scholar? It just seems so far-fetched..n I'm so happy for the girls. To other girls like me n brenda..I think we should just remain positive and wait for a kind school to take us in. haha.

Thanks to the recent estee and loreal sales..I've more choices with my lipcolour everyday now..with more shades of reds and pinks to choose from. Also, I'm so proud of my purchase of the bobbi brown lipstick organiser. I love my things neat and convenient and that's like THE solution to arranging my lipsticks n glosses. love it. Now I need more clothes..n another pair of shoe to wear to work. N a bag for work too. How come I seem to need so many things..n did I mention my bank account is depleting like nobody's business..most probably cos of the recent sales. I'm so sad sometimes I think I need to find a night job to sustain my account. I've worked for 4 months and my account should have at least 4000 by now. my money's all gone and it hurts. haiz. I'm always feeling the after effects of spending money. Oh did i mention, I happily bought a pink stripped blouse and a black knee-length skirt for my medicine interview. Tian convinced me to buy it as a long term investment and also I can wear it to work now and in the future. That made it a reasonable purchase which cost me $108..all to G2000. nvm..I'm sure I made an impression that day and my nice pink blouse certainly helped me look more presentable and professional in front of the doctors.

A whole lot of rambling..and soon..a hello to a new week at work!