tian got accepted into NUS medicine!!i was so so happy for him n made a commotion in class such that the girls all knew about the news..n yea dr chan found out tian's my boyfriend..hope he doesn't suan me..
n because of this i gotta spend so much money on him!!! haha treating him to dinner on saturday n he treated me today..then i finally know what's the perfect present to get for him..yay just that it's gonna be quite hard in the process of getting it..dunno if i can get it in the end..but nvm..all worth it..as lon as he's happy..

i dunno if i'm oversensitive..but after the happy part..i'll start thinking about the future..thinking about what will happen if we go into uni together..(removed) i gotta trust more..n believe..n pray for everything to be fine..god help me..

sorry tian..abt all that i've said to yu today at that shop..haha come to think abt it we've been through this when yu were in rj..haha i'll never change..will i..so silly..but too bad i got a more than average looking boyfriend..if not i wun think so much..sheesh

aniwae i wanna thank sarah xin yee pam mich jamie so so much for being with me through the downs these few days..thanks for your help sarah..n i shall pray for everyone's happiness..

hoping..isn't as bad as it seems..

Sarah amazes me..when i really think about how un-normal the people around me are..i feel demoralised and sigh..cos they're one level above me and the level of sense they display is wow..ok unlike me..who even have difficulties expressing myself..sarah writes beautifully..it's always so nice to read her blog..it makes me hopeful..makes me smile when the story is so so sweet..n people write stories to her cos she's worth it..so sincere..kind and sensible..n i think the fact that she's very religious impresses me..how did she make herself commit to this extent..n believe totally in the goodness of life..in hope..

it's really very beautiful yu know..
i admire her maturity..

aniwae i'm once again running away from work..i want a break..just one good day for me to sleep for 12 hours..i'll be happy..and give pam 24 hours..n to everyone..though yu'll have 1-2 more hours than i have to do work..think carefully..whether it's healthy to sleep at 1-2 o'clock every night..n do look back at your photos when yu were younger..see how much worse yu look now..sad..

comp was down with that virus..have not visited the net for ages because of that..gotta reactivate my hotmail account (as usual)..gotta visit blogs n also realise a lot of things happened while i was away from the net..like blogger..changed its layout..quite nice i must say..aniwae a lot of things happened for the past many days as i was saying..let's see..first squash girls won the interschool championships..somehow the winning isn't that wonderful after a while..i dunno how to put it..right now it's not as if i'm living in glory or sth..it's simply another phase of your life has past..now yu step into the next phase n prepare for the major exam at the end of the year..what happened in the previous phase will soon be forgotten..or maybe not..
what i miss now are the trainings after school..staying in sch till it's dark..training alongside the softballers..basketballers..trackers..canoeists..though tiring..it's still very fun n sigh..i miss my coach..i miss every single thing abt training..

then was ora..had very hectic morning trying to earn as much money but instead earn so so little but had a lot of fun with the girls..getting glitter all over your body..the fall of our manicure business..n the delicious jin yi's birthday cake..very nice n happening day in sch..had a simple mothers' day celebration with pizza n chicken..we simply feasted..

nothing after that..life without trainings is just tutorials, shopping and movies..yeap great movies gone n coming up..van helsing rocks..though i feel that they could have slowed down the ending..not gonna watch kill bill cos only lido's showing it now..nvm can get dvd..watched troy yesterday..i was fascinated n totally loved the show..oh..din like orlando bloom in the show..he din look good..he couldn't fight..haiz haha nvm..anyway i'm so damn interested in Greek mythology now n wanna read more abt Achilles n the trojan war..so cool ok..reading abt archilles in the world book encyclopedia now..n since there're no movies to watch now other than the upcoming harry potter (AaAaHhHhHhHh)..shall drag tian to borders to read abt greek mythology heh e show was very touching n has a lot of meaning to it..it's sad to see Achilles fighting..for no other reason but a name in history..n he finally stopped fighting to seek peace..but had to be killed by stupid orlando bloom..right nvm that's how the story is supposed to be..

oh i read cleo before bed last night..thanks to my sis who bought it..feels good to read cleo again having not read it for 1/2 months..n now i shall stop blogging n mug physics..n later hope i'm not too lazy to go queensway to get sports shoes..yay~

oh did i tell yu my june holidays will be damn exciting?? heh bye~!

i forgot one thing..my darling boyfriend who added to my happifying mood today..met him after training today for perhaps 10 minutes haha bought him his all-time favourite slurppy which i carn really appreciate as much as he does but anyhow..he looked good today..haha as of always..especially when he shaves!! haha (hint hint) aniwae yea really..i can safely tell yu i secretly smile to myself every single time i see him..sheesh..in addition to that i should thank god..see! i'm very unfaithful..

anywae i realise we tell each other i love yu at least once every day..often twice haha it'll mean so much if 40 years down the road after 20-30 years of marriage, your husband still kisses yu before bed n tells yu i love yu..

hello~!!! today's a happy day today's a happy day~!! ok let's see why..

reached home at maybe 8.30 or so..bathed..talked cock to sis..scrutinised my ever-huge-popping-out-like-nobody's-business pimples on my forehead..till abt 9.30..n sat at my study table..thought of how much work i have to do..then was like..shit..wad to do now..oh..practise piano!! n there i go..throwing all my work to one side again..off to practise piano..haha i do that to destress n get away from reality..n then..10.30!!! america's top model!!!

n now it's 11.30..show just ended..n my heart is screaming "i wanna blog!!!" though i know i have have have to do some work tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit..i'm here.

America's Top Model so totally rocks!!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh it's an all girls' reality show..when they get eliminated one by one..yu also feel the pain cos they have so much potential!!! elyse was eliminated off!!!!!!!!! arghhhhh she's so damn stylish yu know..i really dun see what's worng with being smart just that she cannot be cocky..n having seen what the contestants have to go through for the past dunno how many months..i envy them so so much as well as feel for them cos it's really a tough job..gotta be good at practically everything!!! this is really a tough competition..n i was sad shannon din win cos she really totally blew me off at that fashion show..i was like jaw-dropped and WAahhhhh..she's so good at modelling and catwalking and carries herself so damn well n looked fabulous!!! no no i love adrieanne too..(did i spell her name correctly??) that monochromatic picture on the background behind the judges when she was announced the winner..thot it was so so good..n i gotta admit she looked very very good in ALL her pictures..shannon din..yeap..i'm happy for her..oh well..just that after this show..there's not much publicity of her n make it feel like it's just another reality show all over again..i dunno..maybe it's a big hoo haa in america..haha she's still too tomboyish and not classy enough sometimes..heh

yu know..watching this show made me start fantasizing all over again..i used to fantasize a lot when i was primary 5, 6..secondary sch to sec 4 onwards..n now in jc..haha too much work till i've no time n energy to fantasize cos reality is so harsh!! but nvm..t least i know how to relax..n perhaps i'm slacking too much..well..nowadays i actually fantasize abt being a model..ever since j1..i had dreamed abt being a model haha..ok this may be really bimbo..but hello!! every girl has their this girlie n bimbo side..n like adrieanne..i really think being a model is so cool n like everyone is looking at yu n yu feel like a princess!!! right..now this is the jessica yu never knew..haha i'm even more unbelieveable..sheesh sometimes i'll catwalk in front of the full length mirror in my parent's room..then just now i was so inspired n affected by the show..i was posing n slanting my face at different angles in front of my bathroom mirror..haha so silly!! sigh i just like to look really good..dress stylishly and be able to carry myself with confidence..
i've a long way to go..

conclusion of the day: i can only live in my dreams..i simply cannot make it..n my hair is in such a bad state now!! love shannon's hair haha..

wake up..now back to reality..i shall read my dearest electronics notes n perhaps get my beauty sleep..

did i tell yu i was so on abt training today?? haha so much more awake n like baorong said..was feeling the ball and yeap..running n playing good!! 2 more training sessions before my big day..muakz~ good nite pple