I hate you stupid f#$%#^$%&^$^ virus and I'm going to curse you every day and night and I'm going to hate you forever and ever and ever. It's not just 600 bucks which is a whole month's hard-earned tuition pay but it's my entire freaking well-planned beautiful US trip which Tian and I spent many nights planning and perfecting it from scratch. I hate you I hate you I hate you. I hope you die of the most horrible death ever and vanish from the surface of the earth immediately. Arghhhhhhh!

I.AM.SO.TIRED.

but yea, 2 down. Electrophysio and Physio2 both went ok. Not sure if I can get that A- that I need, but I learnt a lot from these 2 modules so yea, they're good modules to conclude my four years in NUS. Time to start on the FYP poster, and 1 final exam to go on 6 May. I think I'm going to be very emotional on 13 May. It may be the very last time I'm going to see some people.

My mum just asked if I can postpone the trip to the States. I don't mean to be a rebellious daughter but she really requests for impossible things from me. And the thing is she never asks me for results. Never had she told me how many As to get, what top school to go to, what degree to do, what honours to get. She's not even urging me to find a job.

I know she's trying to keep me safe. I'm sure she already expected me to say no. 

Swined

"Richard Besser, acting head of the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, said there were eight confirmed cases in New York City, seven in California, two in Texas, two in Kansas and one in Ohio." - Agence France-Presse - 4/27/2009 9:51 AM GMT

Oh dear. It's really getting worse. Good thing we decided not to go to Mexico, but NY and California are not looking too good. I guess it's no pig farms, no cooking of pork, run from coughing and sneezing people, wear face masks?!! Err I think not. End of the day you can only pray that you're not the unlucky one.

Hope everything will turn out fine.

My all time favourite musical

The boyfriend and friends are off to Brooklyn this morning, they left so early I only managed to catch Tian online for a few minutes. Good thing I came home early. Maybe Tian will bump into Dan, Jenny and Rufus there! But he wouldn't know who they are. haha so exciting. I wanna meet Blake Lively in NY!! And Nate and Chuck pls!! And Blair, oh just let me bump into the whole cast of Gossip Girl and I'll go crazy.


I think only Dan looks bad on this cover. Everyone is looking so HOT and SEXY and SO seductive but Dan just looks blur. FAIL. But ooo white is so gorgeous. I need a white dress like tt.

On another note, it was a pretty productive day in the library despite my cramps and the sleepiness. I am motivated for Electrophysio!

Please let it be cool when I get to NY. It's too freaking hot in Spore. I'm melting.

He finally came online. 4 am in the morning. I've never been more awake. Before he left to rest, he said study hard and not disappoint him. Shit. I only have 5 days for 2 whole modules.

Dropped by your place tonight after dinner with the bioengineers, cos your mum kindly taped Idol for me. Nicky accompanied me. Thought I needed some stuff from your com but found that they weren't there. Went into your room to pick up the pink luggage since I need to bring it over sooner or later. Saw your huge empty bed staring back at me. You weren't there asking me to go to sleep. Your parents asked if I was staying over. No. You won't be there if I wake up in the morning. I miss you so badly I cried my way home again. Like how I cried my way home last night from Changi to Jurong. Tearing again while typing this. Didn't know I have so much tears to spare. Just waiting for your first email. I've sent 3 to you in just one day. You should have landed. I'm submitting my thesis tomorrow, dear. I can't wait to see you again.

I know I'm supposed to be hard at work, but I can't stop thinking of you.

Saturday Brunch at The White Rabbit

Primary school best friends reunited thanks to Michelle.:)



Roast of the day - Juicy sirlion steak


The White Rabbit Mac and Cheese


These two can't get enough of each other.


These two will be saying goodbye to each other at Changi Airport tonight but will reunite at the Big Apple on 18 May (or maybe earlier =p).


In similar coloured polo shirts - Yellow Ralph meets Lime Green Lacoste.

CATS!

I'm damn jealous!!!

Cat trying to hump Chiew.


My favourite ultra slender and flexible female cat. Can't stop looking at her. Other than oogling at Rum Tum Tugger, don't know why I'm oogling at him when he's ultra gay. He's so fun to watch haha.

Still not a cat person, but I enjoyed the musical - loved the dancing and the music, appreciated the interaction with the audience and the cast was AMAZING.

NUS

Ok I know I'm in the middle of writing my thesis and getting very high at 2am in the morning but I have to stop and blog about this. I just realised today's electrophysio tutorial was my very LAST class in my entire NUS life as an undergrad. 4 whole years just flew past like that and I didn't even realise I'm never ever able to go for lectures or tutorials in NUS anymore. Omg I thnk that's something that we should be very sad about. I hate the way I learn to cherish things only when they're gone. So after 13 May, my entire undergrad NUS life will officially come to an end and I know after that I'll be reminiscing a whole lot.

Shit I'm really feeling damn sad now. This could very well be the very last moments of my life as a student and somehow I know being a student is forever a million times better than being a working adult. I really hope in the future, I'm not working just for the salary, but working to learn, working to discover new things, and just working to contribute to a greater cause. Please just stop the clock right now. I didn't turn out the way I wanted to be in JC, but really the past 4 years could have been the most impactful and unforgettable time of my life. I could never have gotten all that if I were at another place, another place that I thought would be the best for me.

It started off with a senior who couldn't stop flirting with me and somehow dragged me into engin orientation camp. I got to know my first group of friends in NUS engin and honestly, I still remembered all the fun we had very clearly in fact. Then came the engineering lectures, they weren't too bad at first, I was actually doing ok, until something called Signals, or Fluid Mechanics, and Biothermodynamics came into my life and I became totally lost for the first time. And then I was no longer 2nd upper. Like I'm banished to hell or sth. The number 4 never showed anymore up to now.

Honestly, I'm really not a social butterfly and I think that's the main reason I know so few people in my very small class of 70 odd. 70 only and I still don't know who they are. haha Quite sad right. It's like Cyrus and Li Quan would be mentioning names over lunch and I would not be able to put a face to it. Haiz. So Cyrus, I know you'll be reading this, I'm envious that you guys know everyone and have so many contacts all around. I definitely would like to know more pple but I'm shy!! honestly! So anyway I got to know my 2nd group of friends, rather late into year 2 or was it early year 3. This time a bioengin group, who liked to sit together at the right side of LT 7A, while I'm the one who's forever running in late and would just settle my butt on the first empty seat that I find. (Perhaps another reason I don't know many people.) Well you guys know who you are, including all my other bioengin friends whom I may not always be hanging out with, let's never be out of touch although we may be living entirely different lives in the future ok??

Then there was dance, and I don't even know where to begin. Ok after 4 years I'm still a lousy dancer and I ought to be ashamed, but I honestly learnt so much from so many talented people whom I've met through Blast, but not only are they talented, they are so nice and willingly to teach...ok Blast was really all fun even when we were so stressed and exhausted, and freaking hot and smelly after dance prac at AS7 at 11/12am (they freaking switched off the air con!) I enjoyed moving to the music, I enjoyed the after-concert feeling, the pre-concert feelings could be nerve-wrecking but it's all part of the process, I enjoyed performing for my family and friends although I'm still embarrassed cos I'm no good, I loved bonding with different groups of dancers when we do different items for various concerts...I'm not even writing in proper sentences anymore but all in all, I enjoyed every moment in Blast. Squash had definitely became 2nd in my CCA life cos I changed my priorities but I played for the uni cos I still enjoy the game and I got to see my dearest girlfriends at trainings.

What next...there was camping at libraries during reading week, there were semesters when I was at Central lib and some when I was stuck at Science's level 6. Jordan was my mugging buddy for a long while, Mich joined when we were at Science, sometimes Tian comes to accompany me too. Erm..I also got to go on my first yatch which was so cool with yummy Il Lido food thanks to u know who...haha, and then I went crazy and decided to take off for 5 months, leaving my family and Tian behind. Don't know if you all know this, but I was crying non-stop when I was alone at the airport and then on the plane with Cyrus and Jordan beside me. I was crying cos I was regretting it all at that moment. Thought I was stupid, thought I was wasting a hell lot of my mum's money, and don't know how I'm going to survive without Tian around...ok, SEP turned out so damn awesome. I got to know another lovely group of people on SEP, the guys really took care of the girls, without them I would not have gotten my lovely little spoilt purple bicycle, without which I would probably die walking from home to uni and back everyday. And they took care of meals too, helped me with module mapping, escorted girls home at night, took me back to the hostel in Munich when I got drunk for the first time in my life...I know we don't get to speak very much now but I'll never forget you all and all the things that we did together in that foreign land. I would never have known a place called Eindhoven if not for SEP, cos I obviously don't follow the Champions League. And then I got to know this amazing woman, who is so kind and so funny, I happen to be crazy over every single dish she cooks (I must be half-Italian in my previous life), she's so talented at drawing, she's very filial too...I would say she's a role model. She brought me back to her hometown where I effortlessly gained more than 2kg in a week, I finally got to see the Sistine Chapel where she narrated the story so passionately to us, and it's been a year but I still find myself missing Sonia now and then.

Haha. What's left now is FYP. I would say it has definitely been an enriching experience. I definitely worked hard and pushed myself to the limit, I abandoned Tian at home and stayed in lab way over midnight. I stopped doing tutorials and catching up on lectures cos there's just no time, I have a very helpful mentor without whom I think my FYP is a gone case, my supervisor has been kind on me and hopefully at the end shower me with the A- which I'm working so hard for. Research is definitely challenging and you would never know what it involves until you're actually doing it. I actually think the medical students should have such an exposure to research too but the govt is too practical sometimes.

Primary school was childish fun, of backstreet boys and spice girls, behaving as if we owned the school as prefects from the top class, and competing to complete assessment books (read: Tan Poh Yong); secondary school was still childish, less competitive (so what if I'm only taking 8 subjects) and the fun came from pretending to be grown up (read: a boyfriend at sec 2?? what was I thinking...and that was the time Tian hadn't started shaving...can u just imagine...HAHAHAHAH) and squash was a huge part of my life; JC was competing with my perfectionist self and a little more mature, with captainship n all, trying to make my mark in a school that was flooded with outstanding people, simply overachievers up till now; and finally, NUS.

Looking back, I'm very happy with the life I've led so far. Many unforgettable experiences, I've gone through the ups and downs of life, I've known all the nice people that I'd have liked to know, I have that guy in my life, I have the coolest phone ever, I've visited so many gorgeous places, I think I made my parents proud, so ya, although I'm not done with my FYP thesis, I'm smiling tonight, cos I know I've lived well and I've done well.

Sounds like I'm ready to die. haha. But I'm not cos I'm greedy. =p Think I just wrote the longest post of the decade.

I am officially fat and ugly. FYP is not good for the body and face.

Mich says we should start our tai-tai training soon. I miss you babe. Can't wait for 7 May to see all of you.

Quite sad. Maybe I'm really not meant to work. My CAP is so not helping. Sigh. Low morale.

I'm so tired and so stressed I could cry in the lab right now.

I just wanna go home.

My affair with Topshop

I'm not a shopaholic, but I have a major weakness. I'm a total Topshopaholic. When I'm in the shop, beauty triumphs over price tags and 100 looks like 10. Thank god I don't look good in every piece of clothing I bring into the dressing room, and thank god I still have a teeny wee bit of discipline. Good thing I don't do this every week. Monthly?? I lost track. The boyfriend isn't helping haha.

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles

It's a very, very

Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should

Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous

No one knew me, no one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson

Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world