I love my happy self~!!!

just got back from my hc class gathering..erm..only a sad little handful bunch of pple came..i dunno what the others are doing at home cos ME..who as common tests next week is over to party..haha.. aniwae it was really great to see tsih ern..michael..shaun..grace..hui chu..weili..hian liang..yu wei..n oh ya si howe!!! e usual bunch of pple who'll be down at every class gathering..did i tell yu how much i love my class???? it may be only 3 short months..seriously i can never forget those moments..it's different cos i spent orientation with them..they're the first pple whom i got acquainted to in a new foreign land..that's why like after a year of seperation..when we met up again..it's like i'm still one of them..oh my goshhh...they're one of the bestest pple in my world..it's still that very cosy feeling today..everyone din change..ok michael got darker cos of some crazy everyday training..shaun still looks the same..haha my dance partner..howie still as cool n quiet n nice..tsih ern..haha i meet her the most often..we're going hip-hopping after A levels..

i watched HONEY over at michael's, thanks to tsih ern's very good quality pirated disc..it was SUPERB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now everyone HAS TO GO WATCH HONEY!!!!!!! tsih ern n i were like screaming everytime they start dancing..jessica alba has a fantastic body oh my gosh i'd die to look like her..aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok she's damn good-looking!!!!!!!!!!!n the dance moves were like WAAAHHHHHH even michael was like captivated n i was gasping for air cos i couldn't believe my eyes..n the meaning behind this show is really good..really..believe in yourself..work hard for your goals..everyone can achieve great things.. like dr chan says..yu gotta give 15 stars to this movie cos it's so damn good..i'm gonna get the vcd n probably watch it ten over times to learn the dances and to feel the grove..it's one show which yu cannot sit still watching..must watch with a group of friends..n yu'll stand up n dance..heh..fabulous!!!

thanks michael ern n everyone for making tonight so great..great to see yu again shaun..nice to know that everyone's doing fine..so take care..continue doing your thing..i'm sure we'll all be fine after this ghastly year..i think jc years are really memorable..

n wanna say hi to dearest celene..betty..n everyone..take life easy k..your friends will be on your back..(is that how yu put it?) relax..appreciate all the people around yu..i thank god for all my friends..everyone of them..

it's good to be hopeful..
it dawned on me that rjc squash girls' team 2004 has a 75 percent chance of getting champion this year!!!! oh my gosh oh my gosh!!! din i tell yu my life's super exciting??? the other 25%?? LUCK.
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok..as cap[tain..now i must make my team look very good..must prepare to get people down to support the finals..must psyche everyone up..must cheer for them..must prepare speech to thank coach n teacher-in-charge..hahah..i'm going crazy..

let's just play well next week k pple? i love my team..
starring michelle baorong jia wen charlene xuifang siewling jamie

thanks sarah nita n tseyang..for saying hi to me in school n making me smile..for encouraging me all the while..despite my rudeness and coldness sometimes haha.

i'm going to die.
just read jamie's blog..she watched monster..yea i remembered saying i wanna watch that too..shopping..eye shadow n skirts and everything..man what happened to that part of my life..oh shit my life's evolving into a terrible, undesirable, tiresome n sad state..what happened to my weekly movies and shopping doses!!! oh man jess..
ok..wait..let me breathe..my stress levels are so high that i can break down n cry now..oh shit i just did..n i can practically faint for vomit blood now..

squash season's starting NEXT WEEK..yes squashers..look here..who are we playing..HCJC..first match on 24th march..yes immediately after my math common test paper!!!! oh my gosh!!! my math paper at from 1 to 3..matches start at 2!!!well well..i'll take the paper at a different time from everyone else..SSSHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT..
after today's training..my leg started to hurt like hell..old injury suddenly felt like coming back to torture me..hello wound!!! my season's next week!!! i carn even climb the stairs properly now yu know!!! how am i suppose to run in the courts!!!! oh my gosh can yu pls pls pls pls go away i beg yu..just for the next month..i really need to play for the school..pls let me play though i'm damn lousy can? dun cripple me..pls..i beg yu..

we finally settled the attire..hope all the girls like it..mich jiawen n i seriously think it's perfect n cool!! gotta get it by tuesday so that i can ensure everyone looks pretty in their outfit during wednesday's training..then send it for printing..n ready for next wed's match..i'm busy until i carn breathe yu know..yes i'm doing all these while pple like saleem n david are faithfully mugging at home..good luck guys n go get your 4 As ..wadever..

sorry i'm complaining again..but this helps me destress a little..so pls allow me..pls..the next thimg i should do is to realise there's no point complaining here..so stop blogging..call the suppliers for the attire..n get everything settled so that i can start mugging..ok so i shall leave..

oh shit can my life be less complicated and exciting n happening and busy..i'll then look a lot younger and happier..

i thank my mum n maid for making this fruit salad that i'm feasting on now to help me destress..i thank michelle and jia wen for helping me..thank the girls for cooperating..thanks to ching yau too..

pam i dun wan to be an inspiration to my frens when it comes to doing work..gosh how can that be inspiring..that's low life..sad that's me..haha i carn inspire others in other better ways..haha sad girl..aniwae yu pple dunno how hard i work..i know how hard others work..they stay at home e whole day n face their books..me..walk around at home..eat n eat n have my regular naps..out every saturday for the whole day..sorry i gotta tell yu i do not work hard..results show..haha i'm so contradicting huh..i suck.
i hope my friends are living a life much better than mine..bye.

it's really comforting and nice and touching to know that yu've friends out there so prays for yu silently..who wishes yu well and who is so true to herself..believes strongly in god and..i dunno how to describe her fully with my limited vocabulary..as down as seh can be..the beauty is she is able to find peace with god and herself and turn around to be more optimistic abt life.. i wanna escape too..best is to take a break from singapore..i hate the person i'm becoming..so kiasu..worry over results..everything's just results and results and results..doesn't anyone care about the process anymore? so what if it's not an A..so what if i failed..so what if it's an 8/25..what about the effort i put in listening to lectures, reading notes and doing my tutorials faithfully and on time..ok fine i din revise enough..wadever..

guess i've become much more optimistic and not carrying a black face at school despite horrible results haha..yes i smiled a lot today..today's a happy day..even happier after training when he came to meet me..n we waded across the flooded campus out to the flooded roads and finally to his place..had a nice big magnum almond icecream..heh talked n smiled and laughed..i dunno what will life be without him..finally sent me back home safely and dry..he takes care of me really well..although sometimes no initiative haha but no problem..i canot be pampered..
on the whole..today's a happy day..n right i haven't started on my tutorials..good job..

thank you sarah for praying for me..i wish you joy..

hello!! ok i;'m at millenia walk now..having a little snack at the fuzion smoothie cafe..haven't visited my blog for ages n i gotta say HI!! to tony..betty n everyone else..really sorry i haven't been in contact with yu guys..never call n chat le..really busy with a lot of stuff now..especially when sports season's coming..ok gotta go off for potato wedges and some meat thing..haha bye~!