still Smiling

soon i'll be off to malaysia..tsih ern's house for ex-class gathering with the hwa chong pple!!! heh damn excited..it was damn fun the previous gathering in june..

also..i actually did my bio tutorial!!! yes..n the thing to be damn proud is..i actually touched the essay question!!! haha lazy me always leaves the essay question till the teacher bugs me..n i'll take one day to do one question..haha anywae i stop doing le..must go practise piano..

and my very good fren is in a dilema. too bad she's so presentable and so gorgeous and so perfect that she's given a chance to even furthur beautify herself and show herself to the world..but hmm..she dunno whether to do it or not..i seriously dunno how to help..money of cos cannot..everyone knows i'm broke the whole year..advices? all i can say is that..the chance is quite rare..n since yu're so qualified..try to get ur mum's support..seriously it's quite fun..i'm so interested in the job..not exactly the money..but not qualified..so give it a try..yu'll become really famous man..haha..k think too far ah..

k bye!!!

Happifying

I'm very happy today..heh dunno why..although i'm seriously extremely tired n can fall asleep immediately..still..i'm smiling..let's see..i've nver woke up so early before..9 am?? hmm anywae to the doctor's i went..mt elizabeth was quite crowded..visited him again n he decided to give me a job on my leg..i was very brave k..haha still watch the needle being shifted here n there..haha i like my orthopaedic surgeon a lot..very nice guy..n yeap 45 bucks only for injection..he does charity..doesn't charge me consultation fees..heh

anyway after that was shopping from 12.30 to 6..wahhh shopping with jamie for so mother long is disgusting..from wisma to taka n back to wisma and up and down..shop in shop out..pick clothes try clothes dump clothes..then to far east then scotts and far east then metro..then back to wisma..waaahhh..makign my leg muscles horribly big..my sister was commenting..haha seriously..damn tiring..especially in heels..i pei4 fu2 jonathan man..

after that..6.15 pm at ps..met baoxin, baorong, ness n jannen, huiping n yh..betty, mich..for betty's birthday dinner!! ate..talked..although not that close n not much girl talk cos tables were very far and pple at one end canot hear the other at the other end..but fine la i guess..after makan..had a surprise birthday song for betty when she came back from the ladies..blew the firehouse n feast on icecream!!! then was photo-taking n bye bye to swensens..

haha heading for the mrt station..getting ready to head for home..betty jamie bx br mich n i suddenly stop at the ps bus stop and started talking..clearing misunderstandings and i felt that it was a good talk la..nvm..of cos with jamie making lame comments once in a while..i'm very glad betty and mich are fine..so happy~

lastly i met tian on my way home..before he's off to camp..i was so happy to see him..just kept smiling when i was with him for the short 10 mins or so..i'm on cloud 9~ he always look so good to me..haiz~ i think i'm lucky..

ok..back home..gosh do yu know what i received???? a parcel from dunno where!!! this brown envelope that feels soft..wah i was so excited yu know..when i opened it i screamed man..my dad n sisters were all with me..heh it was a blue t-shirt with a michigan word on it..heh when i saw it i knew it was from tony..gosh!!! it's damn damn sweet of him yu know..n there was also a badge with michigan on it..heh of cos..without fail..tony sends me a christmas card every year since sec 1 or 2..do yu know i;m really really touched..he still remembers me..on my birthday..he called to wish me happy birthday too..sometimes i feel very guilty..he's really very nice to me..but i'm not as sweet to him..sheesh i better go reflect on my actions..heh despite what pple may think of him..he's really quite a nice person..seriously..thanks tony!!! thanks for remembering me!!

sometimes i love myself..sometimes i don't..tian wants a girlfren who is full of confidence..whenever i have inferiority complex..he hates it.sorry k..i'll try to love myself..sometimes i love myself a lot..like now..when i feel very lucky.. =)

happy birthday betty~!

yes your highness..it's your special day n thanks for inviting us to your birthday dinner/./..n the treat~..n yu still gotta rush down to boon lay..gosh yu're unbelieveably faithful to the committee..really..i guess yu're enjoying yourself that's why..n also that that's your community~!! heh ok lame

yu dunno how good my mood is today..after hearing betty's good news..heh i carn stop smiling in relief and erm..happy that my dad's in good mood and also happy that tian came all the here to see me haha

ok my sister is dancing away beside me to the love actually soundtrack and i discovered a guy who uses her picture for msn chat!@!!n that guy removed my face!! nvm..

aniwae i got to use a masque today too..heh that's the hot thing now..anywae i carn really tell the effect on my face yet..hope it's really useful..quite costly lo..sheesh..thanks dad..

k tml's a day of shopping with jamie then betty's dinner..yay~ =) i love my girlfriends..

ok very good..i did the wrong thing again..but i do not blog with the aim of publicising my private life..

listening to the love actually soundtrack from tian as a christmas present..i still carn believe he got it for me..i remembered how happy i was that christmas nite..just walking down the streets watching the lights..even if it's just for an hour..

sorry.. sigh why why why

gathering..

Finally..the gathering i missed dearly took place ..huiping..baorong..michelle..jamie..me..vanessa and betty..stupid baoxin..yu really missed it..it'll be very different from the gatheing on the 29th..sigh..n for all the effort tian and i put in..yu actually din turn up..upset me k..

anywae everything was well..enough food..good bbq..kind vanessa and jannen helped tian n i to clean the place up..thank yu so so much..yu girls dunno how much i treasure this short gathering..to see vanessa again..n like all of us spend time tog..although never girl-talk much but i guess had a little fun huh.. oh n i was glad i created chance for br adn yh to spend time tog..to let them relax after a long day of council work..heh hope they enjoyed themselves..

i wanna thank everyone who came today..to finish up the food..n help me make everyone happy in one way or another..no matter how weird the presents are..heh it's a surprise la hor..jamie thanks for the chain!!! heh and jamie n mich hope yu liked your little presents.. i especially wanna thank him for making all this possible..just for me..for the location..for driving me up and down..getting everything in place for me..yu dunno how much i appreciated what yu did for me today..thank yu so so much..seriously the sacrifices yu make for me..no other guy will ever do that for me i guess..hope yu like the cd..love yu..

oh ya..to all the guys there today..see how close we are..n how happy we are tog..yu know photo-taking n stuff..hope yu all enjoyed yourselves too and feel happy for yur girlfrens!!! heh thanks so much for coming!!!

Merry Merry Christmas earthlings..faries..and dear lord!!!!!! joy to the world..blessings to all my frens..thanks for loving me and supporting me..n not forgetting me this little girl living in a small part of mother earth..Merry Christmas!!!!

this week is a very hectic week..non-stop ever since i came back from malaysia on momday..monday shopping n met tian..tuesday-hectic last min stopping and gathering cum stayover at dawn's place..wednesday..that is today-my fav lord of the rings and hang out at tian's place!!! wahhh..wait..let me breathe..ok..tml will be one good rest day to spend with my family..but i think i'll be busy watching love storm..sheesh..it's xmas!! k i need discipline..this addiction is harmful..but but but
i love love storm!!!
i wanna be vivian hsu in the show..pretty..good character..so determined n capable..damn good frens..cheerful..n get to hug vic chou!!! haha..let's go - waahhhhhhhh

back to the festive season..i wanna thank once again..all my frens who actually remembers me n waste their money on me by messaging me..ok i know it's lame..but these messages - like during new year..christmas..v day and bday..everytime when someone messages me and i realise he/she remembers me and actually thot of me..i get damn touched..cos seriously,.i think friendships are really precious..regardless of who they are..regardless of the age of the relationship..to all those that messaged me once again this nite..thanks for being my fren..sarah..celene..chris pong..alex..jen..auntie iris..dawn amanda soon joseph..den3 den3 n sheesh some numbers i dun have them stored in my phone..so i dunno who they are..anywae god bless all yu angels!!!

hi..sad for yu pple..I'M BACK~!!! ok..lame

had thoughts running through my head on the coach back to singapore..many..but dun feel like typing out now..i'm just sad to return to singapore..to think that i need to retake my SATS..to think that i need to start doing tutorials..(sheesh damn lazy to do bio!!)..to think that i need to start caring about my blackheads and fats..

i told my mum..on the way back..that i wouldn't mind migrating to sitiawan (her hometown in malaysia..this small laid-back town) or another country..cos in singapore..i feel that my life's sucked away from me..but there..i'm just letting go of my life..n living it day by day..slowly..

life there..yu wake up at 12..go have breakfast cum lunch at the coffeeshop behind..nice claypot noodles..then return home..play with brother..play monopoly with sisters..n just sit on the sofa and slack. when yu get sick of slacking, yu'll go upstairs for a nap..n then wake up in the evening - when it's time for dinner. yu'll be driven to this restaurant at some far away..ulu place..where the hygiene is bad..worst..disgustingly poor. but once yu tuck in..yu'll say shit..the food is good man. every evening we'll have seafood..for two nights in a row we had crabs..it's damn good..n the fish..heavenly..

i once told my mum..again..that man pple have no life here..practically living their life step by step..waiting to die..they have no goals in life!!!. i take back what i said..their goal is to enjoy life..not like us singaporeans..torturing ourselves for the better tomorrow..but our future - in the end - may not be better than theirs..

i wanna go out soon..oh ya i need to do sth about my blackheads which have grown so gigantic..haha facial? hmm..n dawn and jamie's wishlist is so suggestive..practically hinting out loud..i where got money!!! sheesh

2nd day in Malaysia
A day in Malaysia passes very slowly..it's seems much longer than any other day in Singapore..yea that's for me..cos back in the garden city..life's very routine..it's just go out..then back for dinner..then tv..then piano..n read..then sleep..yea..i could never stay up till 12..but in Malaysia.. it's almost one already..i just got back to my cousin's place not long ago..went for dinner and visiting..all my relatives came together and the aunties and uncles engagd in majong..pple like me got no share in that..sad man..only watch tv..sheesh..

Went sunway pyramid shopping this afternoon..after waking up at 11+..erm..practically walked the whole gigantic shopping centre..went in to selfridge and topshop to try outrageous colthes like what dawn and jamie did..haha i love that tube dress at topshop!! anyway din but much..i only bought a lilac mango basic t shirt..bought a top for my mum and maid..n that's it..wahh..sad case..well..din really have much time to shop..cos..we have to watch a show at 4.45..tsk tsk..yu wun believe what show we caught..spy kids..2 or 3 i dunno..dun even care.gosh of cos i din choose the show to wacth..it's a totally lame n dumb n money-wasting and arghhh..nvm..it's only worth one popcorn..yes..for the effort to create 3-d effects..i lost count of how many times i told my sis how unbelieveably lame the show is during the short duration..i was disgusted..n the 3-d glasses gives yu headache..yes..i should have stop them n suggest watching haunted mansion..saw the making of it today..damn cool..

ok i'm off for my beauty sleep~ tian i miss yu too..

In malaysia already..over at cousin's house..3.40 am..what am i doing awake? it's so bad for the dormant volcanos (volcanoes?) on my forehead..anywae they're horribly red..shit i look so bad..anywae i was just wondering..how's everyone's holidays coming along? mine's very friutful n passing very fast..i know of others whose holidays are mainly training..yes the badminton pple..i admire them k..so hardworking n strict in their trainings..that's the way man.

ok i'm going to bed..i miss my home..

i forgot one thing..
Welcome back vanessa~!!!! is jannen back too? anywae must must have a christmas gathering when i get back k..oh..tian's place not available on 23rd..jamie..pls discuss with the girls n make arrangements..cya babes..yu'll be missed..lots =)

bye bye
announcement!! jessica lee wei ting will be gone from today 4 pm till 22 dec 5 am..off to the kampong malaysia on family business..yes..visiting relatives..gosh realise i haven been blogging..aniwae tian came all the way to my place to see me off..really touched by that..i was so happy seeing him play with my darling brother..there's a lot of chemistry between them heh..

aniwae last nite i reached home 12 plus after a long fine dinner at Le Amis..shaw centre..with tian's family..food's by the top chef in singapore and the region..justin quek..actually i was feeling very awkward..that place is like for the upper class pple..one dish is 200+..tsk..it's a 6 course dinner but the dinner took 4 hours..small little portion of some duck with a name i dunno how to spell..flown in from france i think..let's just say everything is not from singapore..even the white chocolate and ice cream tastes so fantastically different..but good stuff..seriously..while eating..i finally understand why tian's dad gotta work so hard..even does surgeries on sundays..haha to support his family..he simply gives them the best..sigh..but i think it spoils th boys and girl..oh well..

i must work hard to earn a lot of money..then one fine day i'll bring my family there for a feast..haha..but that chef will be gone..i think/..dunno..nvm..

i wonder wht i'm gonna do in malaysia..oh ya..ok if michelle or jamie sees this..girls..michelle..yu're in charge now of coordinating training k..must msg everyone n coach n mrs lim..for numbers..ask david or baorong..must train 2 4 6 k..dun slack..pls we've slack a lot past week..quite sad..

wun see the girls and tian for a week..it's gonna be pure torture..summore go kampong to stay with the mosquitoes and chicken..haha nvm..happy holidays pple~!

oh oh..know what..i'm addicted to LOVE STORM!!!
not a bimbo, pink and girly show anymore..it's so sweet n romantic show which teaches you to cherish your relationship!!! i like vivian hsu a lot..she's so pretty..great hair great dressing..n very sincere person..n the four of them are such good frens..although one may fight with another over guys..but in the end they together help one another, n console whenever any of them is down..tsk zai zai still looks good heh carn wait for the next episode next week..

it's raining..

let's not talk about sats..i dun think it's of any importance..i know my english carn make it..no matter how i try to memorise the meanings and spent long days with my dictionary..they just dun get into my head..somehow i think my brain is one fifth the size of tseyang's..or even smaller..sad case..

i was reading dawn's blog..we've got much less close ever since secondary school..i wonder what she thinks of me now..some freak who only cares about mugging maybe..i dunno..n since i dun talk to her much now..i only learn more about how she is through her blog..n i especially like entires that really reveal what she truely feels about her life..like the recent one about how she has little determination.. such entries make me learn more about her and at the same time made me reflect about myself..my life..

dawn does not have determination to give up stuff to concerntrate on her priorities..me? i do not have the determination to pursue what i really like..using excuses like "i dun have time", "i dun have the talent"..sigh..only now i realise how boring my life really is..i know studies are really important..that's why i never stop workign hard..but this results in my life only revolving aroung books, tian, orchard, piano, erm squash and the girls..yea.. i am totally deprived..always saying that i want and am going to pursue dance all over again..then i'll tell myself i dun have the time..wad shit is that..n like when i'm really fat like now..i tell myself i need to go running..i can never make myself step out of the house..yes i'm that lazy..i'm that useless..unlike tracy, sarah, jin yi..sigh

also, i've never REALLY been overseas before..what kind of life am i living man..there're so many beautiful things out there for me to see..italy..japan..gosh i know there're beautiful places yet cos of my parents i am deprived..it's so unfair..but on the other hand..maybe i never work had enough to make them give in to my pleas..sigh..but my parents..i give up on them..mum finds it very troublesome n mafan to go orchard..go overseas..haha dun even think about it..n theyt dun let me go overseas with frens..then go with who yu tell me..sometimes they should sit down n reflect on their actions..

i know i have to quit complaining..sorry

She's crazy

yea..i think jessca lee has gone crazy..she ingested a chocolate peanut eclair today..yesterday had think creamy chocolate cake..the day before had chocolate cheese cake..ok she's really insane..
goodbye

happy december pple~!

ok jessica's gonna be out of blogging action again till after SATS maybe..
really no time..spending whole day at gleneagles..training..shopping and movies on weekends..last saturday had class party..a lot a lot to say but time matters..come home still hafta mug and practise piano and of cos have my daily dose of television..tsk..now blogging in between commercials..

let me tell yu what i observed today at gleneagles..i was at Dr Seah's plastic surgery association and observed surgeries on eye bags and double eyelids..gosh jamie has to see this..heh it's cool..learning how eye bags come about and see how he used that instrument that preduces heat to remove chunks of fats from the eye bags..i definitely need to go for this surgery..but tell yu it's damn uncomfortable n may hurt quite a bit cos of the heat..
the girl who went for double eyelids was perhaps a year or two older than me i think..sighhh..she doesn't look vain at all..tsk anywae it involves making slits on your eye lids and removing some muscle (long name..of cos i carn remember..) and then stiching the skin to the muscle and closing it up again..so what does that mean?? for one week or so..yu'll have the damn horrible scar..of cos it'll go off but...wadeva la..anywae it was horrible to watch n after one eye was done, i was feeling nausea n had to excuse myself..damn lousy..i wanna go back a few more times to make myself immune to these surgeries..n the next thing i wanna watch..haha some lung or brain surgery..if i faint..haha that'll be amusing..n real embarassing..

i carn train tomorrow..sigh my knee has some internal injury that stupid me dunno how to describe to the therapist..dunno how..just depending on resting now..sorry guys..carn share the pain of court sprints with yu all tomorrow..but i'll resume training on thursday definitely..i hope i'll be fine..it sucks not being able to exercise three times a week..can feel yurself just getting fat..especially after 9 sticks of satays and 5 chicken wings and drums and cakes after that fantastic 3Gget-together at tse yang's..

ok..i'm gonna watch ARE YU HOT and FRIENDS now..happy holidays guys~! dun worry about SATS la..holidays are when yu do what yu always wanted to do..for me..it's sleep~!! anywae i miss everyone..ohhh jamie just told me dawn got food and other goodies back from japan for us..thanks babe~!! hope she enjoyed herself..