what a great start to my weeks..plenty of dr chans..bombarded by his broken english and new words which yu can never find in the oxford dictionary..n lame sick jokes to keep the class awake..but sigh..wad to do..he's a good chemistry teacher..though his english lang cannot make it..haha

today was very slack..din train cos had maths s..n woowww..so many pple in that freezing LT1..pple busy copying..while i'm frowning away trying to understand her solutions..man she conducted her lecture like a bullet train lo..i dun mind staying a little later..explain slowly ma..n mrs lim makes the questions seem so simple..sheesh..i feel stupid..really out of the place..arghh

reached home at 8..had dinner for half an hour..played piano till 9.15..till my hands were tired and sore..after playing scales over n over again..up and down and up and down the keyboard..n then practise exam piece..super fast..gotta move my clumsy fingers so fast that they entangled..

my dear baorong just called me n we began screaming over the phone together..why???
yingheng called in to perfect 10 and won tickets to the mtv asia awards which will be on valentine's day!!!! it's their first together n it's gonna be so special..gosh..lucky girl..haha congrats!!!! heh never hear baorong so happy lo..=) i also want to go!!! haha k pple..let's all try calling in now..

aniwae i had a great new year break..class party at daniel's was damn fun..slacking around playing cards..with tse yang being kpo n predicting who'll win n lose for bridge..n with pple screaming when playing snap and heart attack..heh n sarah was drunk n couldn't bridge properly..n laughing uncontrollably haha and dedrick was trying hard to control himself after a little too much alcohol too..heh n i was quite high too..though i din drink..
everyone looked so good that day..seriously..all the guys dressed up in nice shirts (i'm impressed heh) and girls in their feminine skirts..heh seriously i love my class..i'm totally blassed with two wonderful class with very special pple..haha really special..n unbelieveable and talented..n good natured..*)
n yu know..the guys are really quite gentlemanly..seriously i'm quite impressed heh
thanks yj's dad n ya yj too for giving us a lift~! heh great huge car..

then there was also new year dinner at tian's place on the 2nd day of new year..yes another nerve-wreaking moment for me..got to be in the prettiest and most appropriate clothing and make-up to face all his grandparents and aunties and uncles and cousins..haha n think i did fine..shaking hands with everyone of them as the introduction took place..they were talking about me but i couldn't understand cantonese..n his grandmother told me i better learn cantonese..haha..i will..dun worry..after my A levels ah..haha anywae i love him..n i love his family..seriously very nice pple..especially his parents..

happy chinese new year!!

hey baoxin..how's ya been? yes i also remember walking aroud with yu at hc last year this day..i was selling food ain't i? it was cocktail..yea class thing..n i remembered it was quite happening..how's the celebrations this year? did yu see tsih ern dance her fan dance? haha supposed to be gross from michael..haha i miss yu all hc pple..i was looking through my dearest photo ablums just now while spring-cleaning n i carn believe how many photos i took with my hc class..haha every occasion will be taken down..damn wacky shots n some very sweet shots from last year's valentine's day..i miss my class..though we're not as close anymore..sigh..

pon school today..sorry councils for your effort to make pple go down to sch..well i contributed to the ang bao thingy!! heh thot that was quite a sweet idea..went to watch Peter Pan in the afternoon..IT ROCKS!!! gosh i love the story so so much..the love the actors..especially peter pan and wendy..tinkerbell wasn't that impressive..maybe cos she was too small..heh cute though..
yes my dearest peter pan..so charming..n when he's sad..it's like the whole theatre's affected..especially his eyes..the sadness shows..on the whole i liked the story a lot..that's why i'm crazy abt the show..
a boy who's afraid to grow up..grow old..escapes from the real world to neverland..and he found someone whom he likes..whom he can have fun with n a mama..he did not know the word 'love'.
but wendy wanted love from him..n decided to leave him when she realise he could not and chosed not to grow up to face reality..to go to school..to work at the office..

if only peter pan appeared in my dreams too..n allow me to taste the sweetness of not growing up..i wanna be like pater pan..yu know when adults say it's so much better when yu're still in school..n working life..adulthood is undesirable..i believe them..cos it's hard life in jc..n i began to miss my secondary and primary school life..

i don't want to grow up..

brain damage

sheesh the chem s tutorial is killing me..2nd question only i wanna give up already..sigh..i'm still in the holiday and shopping mood..n i'm very sleepy..dunno why..doing tutorials this yr makes me tired very easily..

i spent abt 100 bucks yesterday..carn believe it..but yes..all cos of lee tian loon..haha his encouragement and financial support..sheesh bad influence..but i liked what i bought..n got shopping hang over now..din get the bag i wanted in the end..cos of the uncertain look on his face..haha i still like it a lot..think i'll get it this week..i dunno..

haiz i'm a shopping freak..not as pro as jamie..but i just enjoy walking around looking and trying pretty things..which i often can't afford..thanks dear..yu're becoming like my atm..i really apologise..dun worry..i'll be paying yu back soon!!! quite proud that i've actually saved a little money to be able to buy stuff..=)

k better get back to work..i miss him..

shaking my hips to My Only Wish - britney spears

sheesh..i'm so sleepy now..realise i have a lot of work to do..seriously..though they're not urgent..oh damn..k better go practise piano before i give in to my bed..

i love dance..though i was too cowardly to show pple i look ok dancing..at least i get to dance a little? sorry amanda yu wasted yur time teaching me..lucky it was just a few minutes of your time..but



i would love another try..will i be up to it? think even mich gave up on me..

hello pple~! it's late in the night..i carn seem to do any work..so i figured..let's do some diary-keeping..heh aniwae school life has been altright i guess..tutorials are all going slow so there's no rush for me to complete them..but hmm..i see a pile stacking up..sheesh
training today was tiring but quite fun with the j1s..lame guys who are so discriminating..this wun work..i must make the guys' team love one another..haha n cos there is more pple than usual..it's less tiring~! yay haha

oh..lianne secured her blog so no one reads her daily doses..i read her guest book..strained my eyes cos of the pink colour..but i don't know whether to feel sad for her or not..even before she came into rj..she got herself notoriously famous..i din really read the supposedly very mean messages abt her bitching abt others..but haiya..oh well..everyone is not perfect la seriously..no matter how beautiful or rich or smart yu are..sure have flaws here n there.. guess it's quite sad for her..dun think she feels sad but i'll just die seeing sth like that on my tag board..so i've got a good suggestion!! everyone let's just pay more attention to our books n dun even look at her lo..so just chill..dun talk abt her anymore..k..i shall stop too..heh toot mugger..

tml i'm going to the doctor's again..he better make my leg well..i desperately wanna walk and run as much as i can!!! oh pls..

i officially make today the happiest day of the year..haha maybe month..we'll see how..
i got a new table finally..he built it up for me even..making my table even more valuable to me..
we spent our anniversary in the most unusual way today..no romantic dinners..no movies or romantic strolls..only romantic time in my room..haha romantic time sweating n cleaning walls and hammering and screwing my table together!! haha..yea..it all just make me love him even more..sheesh..my table has today's date and our names on it..heh thanks for everything..seriously..everything..that yu've done for me for the past 4 years..

it's very quiet at home..actually my sis and i are quite independent eh..can survive without parents at home..haha
long day today..even longer day tml..oh ya..met james today n he still never stop buaya-ing n his hair is like..eh hem..n he put on weight..james ah..yu look very good with black spike hair or wadeva it was before..haiyo..yu dun look nice now..aniwae hope he enjoyed himself in US..

my grandfather just left us..yu know..he never looked so peaceful and painless before..i smiled when i saw him..i know he went to a place where he can walk and speak and smile..

couldn't continue with tutorial..dun even know whether i need to hand it up..in a very distracted state..miss him a lot..n sorta thinking abt my 2003..2004..

shit it's damn scary..time really flies!!! i mean like a jet plane..i hate it..j1 life has really been very interesting..cool..unforgettable..still can remember orientation..being stuck at hwa chong..going gaga over how good looking david is..n pple in rj will say how james is better looking..haha then me growing to love hwa chong..getting confused abt which sch to go..in the end came to rj..took some time to know pple..and to fit in..n then came training..playing..eye-candy craze and finally having self-control..settled down to do some serious mugging..n eventually got the results i wanted..12 months..just like that..it's gone..i'm stoning now..thinking abt all the frens i have in rj..thinking abt how they've affected my j1 life..thinking abt my class..thinking abt how many times i've broke down this year cos i feel so stressed and shit..thinking abt how beautiful my birthday and otehr special days had been..

wonder how i've changed..matured and grown over this year..will j2 life be really as hectic as what the teachers say..will 2004 cause me more pimples and worse eye bags..will i be even more mugger..sheesh..i just wanna remain the way i am now..i like it..tian likes it..not perfect but i guess it's fine..will 2 S-papers kill me..did i over-estimate myself and make the wrong choice..how will As be..will i do as badly as i did for Os..so many questions..

i'm just like that..forever impatient..always thinking so far away..worrying for nothing sometimes..but i just want an answer..i wanna know what will happen..

haha my sister just sighed and said..gotta pack bag already..i wonder how my first day in sch as a j2 will be..god pls make my 2004 beautiful..and may i grow to become a better person in the year to come..to all my frens..best wishes and no matter what yu do..always be happy..

listening to liang jing ru's album by dawn for christmas..i love it so so much..i wanna thank dawn a million times..her voice is simply beautiful..

Happy New Year~

ok..my new year eve was fun but tiring..got back to spore at abt 11 then went home to bathe and rush to tian's place..watched scary movie 3 and then rushed down to boon lay for countdown party..first abt scary movie 3..it's totally lame!!! wah damn stupid..i dunno why but i wasn't like laughing my head off..oh well n the countdown at boon lay..ys a lot of pple turned out..congrats daniel and co...guess yu all sorta succeeded but i was really a little bored when i was there..thank god i had my sister, tian, jamie jon and mich jega to slack n walk arnd with..ok..cherleading was good..i gasped and like eyeballs wanna drop out cos it's amazing..they're unbelieveably superb..but the rest of the party..good effort by the dancers and bands..they're good..but pple are not like dancing or swaying to the beat..the atmosphere is not there..pple not high enough..unlike the orchard on i went to past few years ago..we're practically crazy and jumping around..remember jamie? haha aniwae sorry i feel that it was more of a funfair like party than a countdown party..but i bet the pple in the foam place were totally enjoying themselves..to be high or not is your own choice i guess..

anywae michelle looked so good yu know..is that the first time she wore a toga? but dunno why..i guess it's cos of jega too..they looked so happy..so xin4 fu2..whenever i see them i kept smiling to myself..heh so happy for her..go check out pics on jamie's blog..michelle looked so good seriously..how come she's getting prettier but i'm not? haha

anywae i had a great nite with tian..so so happy..but i realise this is the last time perhaps for a very long time we will not have the chance so spend so much time together..once the dreadful friday comes..it'll be back to once a week meeting maybe.i just left him 6 hours ago n i miss him..oh ya wad..6 hours is very long..

ok pple..better sleep early tonight..see yu tomorrow in school back in our uniforms~!! hmm there'll be a new batch of pple sharing the small school with us now..sheesh..this is gonna be one tough year..2004..i dun like you..