i tend to be happier these days..despite the traumatizing and disappointing practicals..i don't know..i prefer not to think about them anymore and focus on my coming papers..sigh..i hope someone up there will help me..i hope my hard work will pay off..although i know i don't work as hard as some other people in school..hmm nvm about that..

anyway know what..America's Next Top Model rocks!!!my gosh i totally love the show..n my silly sister actually forgot to call me for the show n i missed half an hour of it!! it was some confession part which was very sad and i bet i would have been crying in front of the tv..sheesh how can i forget about the show today!! arghhh it's monday!! i think all of them are so pretty and cool n i love the hair the makeup the clothes the photo shoots..and it's getting sadder week after week when they leave one by one..i believe it's a really amazing experience to be in that competition..just as the girls said..so exciting!!! haha my whole night is gone just like that..after model..i came online to sign up for SATS but end up blog-surfing and visited the Forever 21 website..haha they have nicer and more variety of clothes in the store..wonder when will i get to buy them..keep controlling myself not to shop cos it's the study season!! n here i am blogging..sheesh nvm..tomorrow will be a more intensive mugging session at my favourite hangout - the cosy RJC library..haha mugging is nicer in school..where everyone around you is mugging and the atmosphere in the library is very motivating..so nice to see the same people everyday in school..mugging would have been really boring and lonely without michelle and jamie..sarah pam n class guys..dawn minli amanda the counsellors..hockey guys and pretty girls like wing yee boon seer haha..with latest shopping reports.. - the rjc funky library-goers

ok time to study a little and sleep..gotta get up super early for breakfast date with mich and jamie..haha they still don't know what to get for me for my birthday..heh i thought it's very easy to spot what i need..nvm..this is very fun haha but it should be easy cos i'm not like jamie who has everything except i-pod!! haha n those two babes have gotten their prom dresses..including lucky girls like sarah n pat..oh no i'm so gonna die..n i'm still disturbed by the rumour that i'm getting a dress imported from america..what nonsense is that..i haven even visited america and jessica is poor..unlike most people in rjc who don't live in HDB flats like her..what dress from america..it's so ridiculous..sigh..i hate rumours..where the hell did it even originate from..terrible..

ok time to sleep..good luck to all for the A levels!!

we had our farewell assembly on friday evening..it was just ok at the beginning..the ceremony wasn't that touching..batch video was not well done and the singing part wasn't that impactful to bring tears to my eyes..but i have to applaud john's speech..mich n i were telling one another how good john is as a council president.i'm always so impressed by the way he carries himself and the way he makes his speech..so relaxed and oozing with confidence and never ever boring..even better than the teachers and principal i must say..haha well everyone went quiet and was listening up..and his words are so appropriate and meaningful..very well done as always..
jc2 life is indeed short and sweet..but despite the duration..it has been really exciting..full of surprises..stress but also joy and laughter. i guess i can never forget my jc life and the people whom i've got to know. I have to admit that i don't know many people as i'm not really an extrovert like pam and i don't really socialise..but those few friends i've got to know are really amazing and funky..and my class is just great..and without them i won't be able to survive through jc. We comfort one another when our results were disappointing..i have friends who never stop encouraging me and always believe in me..and my friends love to have fun as much as i do. I wonder what everyone will become..i wonder where everyone will end up next year..sigh everyone's gonna seperate and i wonder if we'll remember one another. It'll be university..then marriage and work..haha seems so damn fast..just like ms teh..Congrats ms teh!! my ever-so-kind ct is finally getting married next yr end and i really hope my whole class is invited to her wedding and it'll be a great get-together!! ms teh and her boyfriend look really good together and they're so so sweet!! i'm so happy for her and gotta thank her a lot for looking after my class who always give her headache..my class had a nice chat at burger king after farewell assembly and took lots of pictures..and soon i'll have to depend on those photos to bring back the good times i had with my friends..

i carn believe how fast all this is going to end..after prom..that's it..perhaps i'll never hear of some pple ever again..i don't know..n what will happen on the day of A level results release..i don't want to think about it..another phase of our lives will soon be gone and life will get tougher..no doubt..i'm just thankful that i had a great time and learning experience in jc..n i believe all of us would have matured in one way of another..able to control our emotions better..handle setbacks..leadership skills..handle relationship problems etc.

this year has been tough..and unexpected..i've gone through a lot..cried so many times and i guess i survived..everyone did..n i'm proud of them.

i finally persuaded my parents' to get me a digital camera..though i know i do not deserve one..well the tradition in my house is that we'll only get gifts if we perform well or something..like my first nike sports shoes after psle..discman and handphone after some exams..now i've gotten greedy and asking for gifts when i've just disappointed my parents..what is wrong with me..

i know my mum's disappointed in me..i don't know if she feels that she's wasted her money on me..3rd time i've failed again..too bad i'm the only one who likes to play piano..my dad was very kind and understanding..he knows i can do it..i have not touched my piano for a month or so already..my house seems more dull and empty without someone playing the piano everyday. I recorded some of my practises before my exam and just now my dad suddenly started playing the tape and said i played well. i know jonathan misses listening to me on the piano. i couldn't bear to listen myself play and ran up to my room and cried. I even scolded my dad for playing the tape. I practised so hard..i really did..

can i exchange prom queen nominee for a pass in my piano exam..i muse be quite useless..simple piano exam also screwed up by me and made so dramatic..i've never felt this incapable..
another major exam coming for me to prove myself again..sigh..time to stop those tears and focus on studying..
n when i come back..it'll be the end of the As..

heyhey..first day of post-exams..feels really good i must say..woke up at 9 by amanda's message..couldnt force myself back to sleep after that..now just slacking..having a slow breakfast n read the papers..now visiting the net n soon i'll be off to tian's place..what great life haha i have nothing academic to do!! oh i'll indulge in a book..promised myself that once the exams end..anywae whaT A slong-short busy 2-3 weeks it has been..i carn remember myself doing anything else other than planting my butt down in the library everyday..tennis sessions in the evenings and more mugging at tian's place at night..n i'm excited to see what monday n the week bring us..i know i wun be happy..i'll be sulking the whole day or sth..but still..i always look forward to the conclusion of my hard work..with optimisim (wonder if that will help..)

anywae happy belated birthday to baorong..happy soon-to-be brithday to amanda..that will be on the 4 oct..i'll make sure my whole class goes for the party!! i carn wait to be 18..though i know it'll be another normal day with exams but i hope tian makes it really sweet in the evening..though it's just dinner..nvm spending my birthday with him is good enough..i know i'll be the happiest girl on earth..haha

mich jamie n i had a nice shopping session yesterday after the cham ASS paper which was totally undo-able n i'll probably get 10 marks..or even lesser..shit anywae we went to see dresses..jamie n mich did not agree to the dress i fancied at PIB which made me so sad cos it meant i should choose another one n i really carn find any!! i mean singapore is this tiny n unless i custom-make my dress..there's seriously very few choices of dresses!! not considering those from BCBG that is haha..damn pretty ones but so mother ex and not worth for suntec ballroom haha. don't think i'll consider tailoring a dress cos it's just too risky..i dunno arghhhh if that GUESS top costs 100 i'm so getting it..dun care if it;s just a simple top but it can match with any black skirt n my attire for prom will be done!! can wear the top for the post prom party too..sigh nvm it's so damn ex..not worth at all..ever..
oh we finally bought baorong's present n couldn't find something nice for baoxin yet but i was so happy cos we acconplished so much!! n that includes a present for pam too which i thot was so pretty n nice..aniwae it was really nice going out with them again cos we hardly go out together..like once a month or sth..n though my feet was sore n all but time with girlfriends must really be treasured..heh n it was nice to bump into boon seer celene and xuan..shopaholics like us!! yay

ok don't think i'll be blogging much anymore..after this weekend it'll be back to old school life and prelim practicals are around the corner..sheesh it's so so fast..n we've to go through it once more..one last time..the final one..really scary to think of it now..hai i dunno..nvm dun stress..we should just enjoy ourselves as much as we can right now!!