Innerpeace

There was the NUS medicine essay test today which went badly for me. understood the question and perhaps i could have some stuff to write but i wrote out of point and may not even be answering the question. argh what the hell nvm it's their loss if they don't want me. Don't care already. I just read wingyee's blog and totally agree on how unfair and upsetting the NUS system is. I know I'm short-listed so I should just shut up but I have friends whom I know have genuine interest in Medicine and have not stop trying to apply to nus med but NUS med doors remain closed to them. There's also nothing I can say or do to get them in. However I also recognise the fact that the admissions office wouldn't possible know who's genuinely interested and who's not so we can't blame them too. how how how..and i can't believe someone who put medicine as a third choice got shortlisted. ridiculous isn't it..it's so sian to think that i can't go to school with all my friends who are so keen in medicine and even possess qualities that will make them good doctors!! arghhh feel like going hongkong now.

on leave tml cos of the nus dentistry test and there'll be the demo show at toni's in the evening. i'll be wearing brown boots..supposed to have the punk look to match by "stylish hair" by the director. excuse me it's the director cut which costs over a hundred but i look like shit. look like a boy more like it. haiya nvm tian still loves me so it's fine. I have this bad feeling about the make-up they're going to give me tml..and i wonder what kind of clothes i'm supposed to wear tml..how would they know my size?~! i'm so lost la. That day when i went for the haircut, I saw 3 other models there..one of them have worse looking hair than mine haha and the colours are like waahhhhh..veyr bold. but anyway they all seem to know each other and know what they'll be in for on monday. I felt so left out and lost. The technician did not give me any other details except to wear boots. hope it won't be screwed up..guess I'll feel secure as long as tian's with me. He had to sit through my long haircut on Friday. Thanks darling..you know I needed you for assurance.

Had a nice Saturday with tian. Reported for work at Meritus Mandarin where there's a mandarin public forum going on, co-organised by my society hence as secretariats, my superior and I had to be there. We arrived there to realise there's nothing much for us to do except to take photos, rather pissed off initially cos we felt useless. haha but everything was fine after our big boss asked as along for lunch at Chatterbox!! my first time there so I had to try the famous chicken rice. Very nice indeed..n my love for chicken rice came back haha. i miss chicken rice now..sheesh anyway I made a move when the forum finally commenced. Met tian at his place and we went over to Roy's house to hang out. Played play station mainly and I felt rather left out initially. computer games are really not my cup of tea and i was so lost at this brick game that I really don't see the point of me joining in. Later was tennis game which was much better but I rather play a real game and sweat it out on the court of cos. haha anyway my mood was rather bad that afternoon because I was so conscious of my ugly hair and thought I looked like shit. Vented my anger at tian too but we made up in the end. Luckily for me he's always so tolerant..while i can be red-headed. I love him so much..don't know what i'll do without him.

Met his family for dinner at Straits Kitchen. My gosh the variety and quality of food was so good!! I enjoyed myself so much and my only regret is that i don't have a huge appetite or else i'd have gone for a bowl of laksa and plate of chicken rice.oh and more stingray and other food. sheesh can't wait to bring my family there for a treat if I get into medicine and pass my driving test. My family will definitely love the food there. A good dining experience really, there's practically everything there!! except western food of cos but I don't miss it at all because asian food is as good!! Met the whole crew of class 95fm who was there for some gathering or sth. I wonder who's on air then. Jean Danker, V. Lopez, Mark Richmond, Glenn Ong, Rod Monteiro and the wheel of fortune guy..plus some other pple whom I don't know..all there looking so good!! Glenn Ong is rather big-sized you know..quire surprising..the girls of cos look very good. My highlight of the night was at the dessert corner when Mark Richmond spoke to me. hahahah I was quite shocked myself..you see..I was wondering which syrup goes with the almond pudding and he saw me hesitating hence told me it's either the sugar or honey syrup. I did not know it's him standing behind me but was pleasantly surprised and smitten by his nice voice. haha at the same time tian told me that it's the sugar syrup. quite embarrassing but I was so happy! He's really very cute and charming ok..beatrice chia is one lucky woman. haha was so tempted to go up to him for a picture but hello the whole crew is there..n i'm with tian's family. haha Guess what tian said when I got so excited over Mark Richmond. "I know why you're so excited, because it's hard to find another guy who is as cute as me." HAHAHHHA he always makes me laugh..love him to bits.

After dinner we joined his friends for movie at cine. Because there's only first-row seats left for S-Diary, we had to settle with Shikoku. Hahaha a waste of money and fake-scary show. nothing much to say about it except that it's rare to see people kissing and making-out in a Japanese horror show. Weird. but I had fun watching it. Reached home really late last night.

Time for dinner. I'm missing shopping this weekend. No clothes to wear!! N jamie do take care..horrible ricky who left her at home all alone while she's down with a fever and can't see somemore. I promise to meet up with you girls next week or the week after ok. Hey michelle..if jega's free everyday like tian you'd be meeting him very often too..i'm sorry for being tied up.

Oh I finally got a new tuition assignment!! see..now 2 of my days are occupied but I have scheduled one tuition day on tuesday evening which is the same day as mich's so that our schedules won't clash!! it's a pri 5 girl..good rates so I did not have to bargin at all and did not mind the bus ride to her condo. Think i'm going to miss life without any tuition assignments (I'm really enjoying my free evenings now) but nvm it's time to work hard again.

You know..the month is coming to an end again. How fast!! Can't wait for another pay cheque..May's an exciting month and I'm certainly looking forward to it. Can't believe school's going to start soon. I actually enjoy working life..and life without studying..oh no..somehow i really dread school now..especially medicine which involves pure mugging for 5 years. I'm going to have no life..my hair's going to turn white and i'll look old and boring. argh nvm shall not think too much..let's see how things go, and what I need to do now is enjoy every single minute of my life.