Innerpeace

This is so against my will. I was so indecisive and stupid to even say yes in the first place. Now I'm regretting my reply and contemplating to cancel the whole lunch thing but my sister said it's too mean and I should just go and get over and done with it. Arghhhh I don't want to go at all..you see..I'm always going all out to make others happy but what about me?? Actually it's my own fault. I should have said no right from the start but I shouldn't be so unfriendly too. I'm delaying lunch and killing time at home so that lunch later would be shorter and I don't have to face him for so long. Arghhh if only I can bring someone along with me..What am I going to say to him later? Chinese or English? sheesshhhhh