Innerpeace

I want to be in that picture...


I saw the beautiful pictures..and with sadness for myself and happiness for all the medical people, I showed my mum the photo of the girls and guys in the Anat hall. Too bad the cadaver was covered up but I saw the happy faces of all the lucky people in that room. And I saw Deborah too!! She was one of the closest girls to me when I was in Hwa Chong!! She made it!! She's like the most disciplined and non-bitchy or bimbo girl..and I remembered me looking up to her and being as studious as she is and trying to be as fit as her too. We used to run to Sixth Avenue together in our HC PE attire and run back..that was the fitness craze. I'm of course not in that league anymore. And Velda's there too..


Why not me..


I believe I'm not far from Velda on the list..then again there are still a few more girls in Bioengineering so it can be anyone of us after Velda. Hopefully next year when we apply again they'll take into account that we're somewhere near the top of the waiting list this year and let us in..I know a few girls here who are applying again..


There I go crying again and running to the toilet with my laptop so that my sister will not see me cry.


I think only my mum knows how badly I want this..I know she can tell..I haven't stop talking to her about medicine..


Tian's going to speak to his first patient tomorrow..and I know he'll look so smart and suarve in his formal attire. Ok it's not his patient, it's a patient but it's gonna be a fantastic experience for them. Everything about being a doctor is interacting with the patients..other than the mugging that is..I'm very excited for him and I'm waiting for the day when it's my turn..


God, can't you see it?