Innerpeace

What It Means To Grow Up

To me, growing up means..
1. Falling in love and knowing that he's The One..

2. Looking old and mature..

3. Crave for more and more shoes, bags, clothing of all sorts when you really don't need so many. I fell in love with 2 pairs of shoes form charles n keith..new arrivals but sheesh!!It's really a crime if I get both of them..cos it's really not a necessity!! guilt guilt guilt

4. Falling in love with fragrances like Romance by Ralph Lauren and make-up products like Bobbi Brown, simply because fragrances smell so good n look good too..make-up products - simply to add that little extra to our beautiful faces to look even better

5. End of uniforms and start of applications to university

6. Making serious choices

7. Getting a job..GETTING PAID!!!

8. Getting an atm card..followed by credit cards..but I don't think I need one..as long as my boyfriend has one..that's enough..HAHA

9. Learning to drive..followed by owning a car (that's still far)

10. Spending lesser and lesser time at home

11. Then realising the need to spend more time at home~!!

12. Become naggy, especially to your parents and siblings. Sometimes I feel like I rule at home haha

13. Late night outs..be it clubbing or hanging out with friends

14. Expensive presents..somehow the older we get, our presents become more expensive

15. Being brand-conscious (just can't help it. It all depends on whether you allow yourself to be influenced and swayed..I have low resistance.)

16. The need to read the newspapers every morning

17. More experiences of fine dining

18. Drinking wine, vodka blah blah alcohols

19. Becoming more emotional..tears seem to run rather freely..I seem to be more timid too (No more scary korean and jap movies)

20. The urge to buy clothes for my parents (They're not the shopping kind..totally opposite of me..I wonder where I got my genes from..so mum don't bother having new clothes even during chinese new year..so as the eldest I have to do sth n since I'm getting salary now..I can buy nice clothes for her!! just spent 170 bucks on clothes for my family..i'm going crazy..n poor)

21. Caring about more people..You just feel more responsible and want to make people around you happy. I start thinking more about friends' and tian's family..how to make them happy during times like mothers' day..christmas..new year..n like I should buy flowers or log cakes and visit them with goodies..n when tian's siblings birthdays come..I feel like I should get them sth too..

22. Becoming more money-minded..more stingy (in some areas). I don't like to see money in my account disappear but yet I still use it often..it's very contradicting. Some days I feel a strong need to save..but the next day I can spend 80 bucks on a pair of esprit pants. But i become more calculative.

23. The need for more holidays overseas

24. More adventures and surprises. I love surprises. N also when you grow up..you want to try more things and get more things done so that you'll feel accomplished. However there are a lot of limitations along the way.

25. Lots of conflicting emotions..You start thinking a lot..like thinking about your actions..thinking about what i should and should not believe..n religion..sometimes it gets so tiring to think. To make things worse I'm currently reading Sophie's World..bout the history of philosophy. Well most pple would have already read this book in sec school..nvm i'm a late bloomer haha well..it's a very interesting book which tires my brain out..it's a whole lot of questions for the reader.I was reminded of a discussion with dedrick n yee yen in rjc one late evening when my class was mugging together after school..it's a discussion about whether we have free will..or are our fates pre-determined by someone or sth..think about it

Enough for now..I wanna get some sleep..nice to see jamie n celene today..2 pretty girls. Had dinner with family at suntec today..bumped into a lot of old friends from rg..yi xin jane wen yuan wow..so surprised too

On the way back my sister gave me a lecture on my spending habits. She's not very happy that I'm influenced by my richer friends from rgs n rjc..especially jamie haha since we're closer. Oh well..I reflected a bit n i know it's true that I really buy clothes like nobody's business and i seriously don't need them but at the same time I do observe the costs. N ever since I got my atm card..i've been paying most things on my own n tian pays lesser for me..but i think i'm buying more things..I'm feeling really guilty cos my family's poor but I'm spending as if i'm one of the well-off friends from school..yes I've been very influenced. Tian's family influenced me too. As compared to others I don't buy much but to my sister I changed so much after studying in rg n rj..

I guess I should cancel my appointment at bobbi brown already..sorry jamie..I don't think I should spend another 60+ anytime soon. As beautiful as they look..I guess I really don't need them. I need food..not make-up. And it's not as if I don't have a blusher..what I should get is only the rose lip-gloss which is gorgeous..ok I'm trying very hard to convince myself.

Back to work tml~!I had a fulfilling weekend. Weekends are getting very precious now that I'm working. Time's getting precious too..n Sleep.By the way, I finally passed my final evaluation with flying colours..haha now awaiting the test on the 6th april..n because of that I have to slow down my driving process..I'm this close to finishing my course..can't wait.