Innerpeace

hey passerby..i'm very confident yu know!! so many things happened this week n i'm still smiling in sch..wow..still psyched up to celebrate yj's birthday for him today..took pictures and then there was the squash photo taking session after that..which was very fun n nice cos the team haven't met up for ages..just that there's a bit of problem cos there were no teachers nor trophies nor flag!! terrible but nvm..

n i got 50/100 for physics..haha perhaps charlie chan would laugh at this n think i better start paying him again..mich once told me some pple are jealous of me cos i'm doing rather well..i told her what crap..haha from now onwards no one will say "jess sure do well wad"..always hated it when pple say that..cos when you're in rj it's very easy to distinguish who's capable of that n who's not..who's smart n who's not..n i hate it when pple assume oh jess will sure do well..50..haha what a joke..really thought i know my stuff..why am i blinded..what should i do..but passerby..i'm so optimistic ok..i'm bucking up n confident n decided not to resume tuition..although pple n my mum would encourage me to..i dun want to think that i'm stupid..if my friends can get a b without tuition i dun believe i cannot..i wonder if this confidence is helping me..

i've stopped watching my regular tv shows like oc, amazing race, simple life and extreme makeover. decided to commit more time to studies since i'm doing like shit and also that i sleep earlier than everyone else..haha but i'll never give up FRIENDS..that show really rocks man..it's like yu're totally in love with them cos they're so farney n good!! i'm hooked on..just sad that i din appreciate them earlier..

sarah's "hardworkingness" and commitment amazes me cos i'm forever too lazy to work out or run..n she's started revision..i should perhaps start too..hmm..

last thing..i gotta thank mich xin yee baorong sarah pam and all the girls in my class..thanks for being there for me..encouraging me when i'm feeling the lousiest ever..with smarties n tissue paper n advices..haiz i hope i can do it..i hope i really can improve for prelims..i've no more chances..no more time..i don't even dare to think about getting into nus med now..n not gonna think about s papers..i'm not fit in the first place..

tml the girls are having dinner together!!!! haha so cool!! we'll meet eveyrone again!! i miss everyone so so much..wonder how everyone's doing..how ness looks..haha n i have no clothes to wear!! crap

oh oh..did i tell yu how wonderful my boyfriend is..haha ok i'll always want to have some ice cream when i'm feeling very sad..wanted to go swensens to have ice cream but couldn't afford to spend money cos i'm saving up for his birthday present..well he gave me a surprise at my place with ice cream!! never even tell me he's coming!! so terrible but i was really touched..n he made me so so happy..although he's so worried about my studies he's gonna trust me to do well n not force me to take tuition though he highly encourages..haiz

ok stop thinking n be confident!!! to all my pretty girlfriends..take this advice from this kind passerby n just have confidence!! if yu're putting on weight tell yourself yu're sexy!! if yu're feeling lousy n insecure about studies..hmm..that i don't have a good advice..haha if yu're thinking about some other pple n it's bothering yu..ask yourself if it's really worth it to be distracted by that n is that person worth your energy and time..

i'm smiling =) ok actually i'm not. good luck to hauwan and pam and huifang for their respective competitions..soon pam will be liberated of her duties!! n good luck to yingheng for his piano exam next thursday!!! haha soon it's my turn..bye!!