Innerpeace

heyhey..ok i haven't been here for a long long time..not that i've nothing to blog but my com is sick..think it's attacked by viruses..n i don't know which doctor to approach to treat my computer..so yeap whenever i go online..it hangs..i never get to type anything on my blog..

life's been refreshing after the As..a lot more sleeping and shopping..there's just so many things to do and not to do..becuase of sats i haven't really got the chance to enjoy myself throughly for a day but have been going out almost everyday as usual..shopping for the perfect dress and driving jamie and michelle crazy. I'm really quite a difficult person..being the perfectionist and not so perfect body girl..oh n demanding too..it's just so hard to find the perfect dress..and when yu see that one dress..there's always something imperfect about it the more you see it..arggghhhh so guess what..i've decided on my sister's prom dress as my JC prom dress..can't believe it myself..it's like the whole world's gonna be looking at me and commenting or bitching about me..why such a dress..haha nvm just act confident and be indifferent to the pretty pple around me in gowns and sexy dresses..

sats today was ok i guess..met a lot of rj and hc pple who were all mingling around..mich and i were standing at one corner talking to chin yee..sometimes i don't know whether to feel sad for myself..i've so little friends..though very close friends..i don't know a lot of pple..and most people are just "hi-hi" friends..if i were sitting for sats 2 today..standing among the crowd..i don't think i'll be talking to many pple..i don't think i'm a loner..maybe just not sociable and brave enough..sometimes i hope things are different..but it's too late i guess..it's end of jc for me..time to think of what i'm gonna occupy myself with for the next 6 months or so..tough..

And after weeks of shopping..opps it's only been a week since the end of As..hmm seems a long time..anyway i'm really so tired so shopping..there was one day i got so fed-up because i still failed to find a dress for prom and refused to try on any more dresses despite jamie's n mich's encouragement..it's so tiring to find things to buy..and with expectations the harder it is to decide on the purchase..especially with my bad habit of regretting my purchases..arghhh..and days of shopping really killed my feet..my sole's really sore and i can feel the veins on my legs popping out haha i guess it's a consolation that prom is finally going to be over soon..but yet sad..

sigh..tomorrow is it..i'm scared and excited..i really hope i'll look gorgeous tomorrow..pray that make-up and hair will be very nice..that pple are fine with my choice of dress..that i'll enjoy myself a lot looking at the pretty people around me..and quit comparing but appreciating and get good shots of everyone for memory sake..sigh hope pple thinks i look very good tomorrow..no..hope everyone looks beautiful tomorrow..and my "sashaying" or Q&A will go fine..sigh the whole prom queen thing is a joke..there are others who are more deserving than me..jamie will be a more natural prom queen nominee to begin with..nvm gotta thank betty baorong and wing yee and mich jamie for helping me and comforting me..sorry about our rather bad first-time manicure experience today..i was so picky and worried about the colour but the more i look at it the more i think it's acceptable..tian says it's fine..it's just different..to match my different dress..

ok hope everyone will have a good night sleep today..too bad i don't have any mask to do a mini facial or sort at home..good luck to everyone..hmm just realised i don't even have a bag for tomorrow..shucks..heck ok cya guys~!!!