Innerpeace

we had our farewell assembly on friday evening..it was just ok at the beginning..the ceremony wasn't that touching..batch video was not well done and the singing part wasn't that impactful to bring tears to my eyes..but i have to applaud john's speech..mich n i were telling one another how good john is as a council president.i'm always so impressed by the way he carries himself and the way he makes his speech..so relaxed and oozing with confidence and never ever boring..even better than the teachers and principal i must say..haha well everyone went quiet and was listening up..and his words are so appropriate and meaningful..very well done as always..
jc2 life is indeed short and sweet..but despite the duration..it has been really exciting..full of surprises..stress but also joy and laughter. i guess i can never forget my jc life and the people whom i've got to know. I have to admit that i don't know many people as i'm not really an extrovert like pam and i don't really socialise..but those few friends i've got to know are really amazing and funky..and my class is just great..and without them i won't be able to survive through jc. We comfort one another when our results were disappointing..i have friends who never stop encouraging me and always believe in me..and my friends love to have fun as much as i do. I wonder what everyone will become..i wonder where everyone will end up next year..sigh everyone's gonna seperate and i wonder if we'll remember one another. It'll be university..then marriage and work..haha seems so damn fast..just like ms teh..Congrats ms teh!! my ever-so-kind ct is finally getting married next yr end and i really hope my whole class is invited to her wedding and it'll be a great get-together!! ms teh and her boyfriend look really good together and they're so so sweet!! i'm so happy for her and gotta thank her a lot for looking after my class who always give her headache..my class had a nice chat at burger king after farewell assembly and took lots of pictures..and soon i'll have to depend on those photos to bring back the good times i had with my friends..

i carn believe how fast all this is going to end..after prom..that's it..perhaps i'll never hear of some pple ever again..i don't know..n what will happen on the day of A level results release..i don't want to think about it..another phase of our lives will soon be gone and life will get tougher..no doubt..i'm just thankful that i had a great time and learning experience in jc..n i believe all of us would have matured in one way of another..able to control our emotions better..handle setbacks..leadership skills..handle relationship problems etc.

this year has been tough..and unexpected..i've gone through a lot..cried so many times and i guess i survived..everyone did..n i'm proud of them.

i finally persuaded my parents' to get me a digital camera..though i know i do not deserve one..well the tradition in my house is that we'll only get gifts if we perform well or something..like my first nike sports shoes after psle..discman and handphone after some exams..now i've gotten greedy and asking for gifts when i've just disappointed my parents..what is wrong with me..

i know my mum's disappointed in me..i don't know if she feels that she's wasted her money on me..3rd time i've failed again..too bad i'm the only one who likes to play piano..my dad was very kind and understanding..he knows i can do it..i have not touched my piano for a month or so already..my house seems more dull and empty without someone playing the piano everyday. I recorded some of my practises before my exam and just now my dad suddenly started playing the tape and said i played well. i know jonathan misses listening to me on the piano. i couldn't bear to listen myself play and ran up to my room and cried. I even scolded my dad for playing the tape. I practised so hard..i really did..

can i exchange prom queen nominee for a pass in my piano exam..i muse be quite useless..simple piano exam also screwed up by me and made so dramatic..i've never felt this incapable..
another major exam coming for me to prove myself again..sigh..time to stop those tears and focus on studying..
n when i come back..it'll be the end of the As..