Innerpeace

hey..i'm back..but not for long i guess..just had to let out something today..sigh last day of prelims..watched Saved! and nus dance performance..by the way it was terrific..just superb and perfect..everyone's so so good i was just amazed and in awe. n that actually made me sad. haha

anywae i just read baorong's blog..she n i must be long lost sisters..when she's not happy..i'm not too..yeap easiest paper of all time n i finished in like half n hour n checked 3 times n got 6 mistakes..n the day before i was doing mcq the whole day..wow that should i do about myself? i din cry unlike baorong..learnt to take things much better than her already..she's still the more competitive n perfect one since pri sch..sigh..yeap we're all growing up slowly..learning more things about ourselves and getting more emotional..

amy said she's not a good dancer..who is then..is it just natural that we compare ourselves to others all the time n simply fail to appreciate ourselves better>? up till now i'm still finding my meaning in life..still looking for my hidden talent..still proving that i can do something..why do i feel so unaccomplished..untalented and simply a normal being who would not make a difference whether or not i exist..it's very sad that i am not good at anything..n i don't think i'm being too perfect..

everyone's good at something..but i'm still looking for my area..i've tried piano..gave it my 100% n i can finally tell myself that that's not my talent..far from a pianist..i'm just a learner..
i want to more on to something else..i simply wanna pursue my interest, however there're really a lot of obstacles..parents' disagreements and pple think that i carn do it..the thing is..i want to try..cos just dancing makes me really happy..n i have 100% interest in it..haiya no point talking about it..i can only sit in the audience and envy pple and tell them how good and beautiful they are..

today's just perfect..i hope i get Saved! soon..by whoever..be it Jesus Christ or some crystal thingy..haha..really..life's not just about As..so what if yu have like 3 As or 4..it wun make me happy forever..that's not what makes one unique..special..

i'm tired..good nite pple..to baoxin baorong betty huiping ness jamie n mich..it's an exam but there's no need to like pull your hair out over it..relax n study consistently n yu smart pple will be fine..less smart pple like me perhaps have to do like 2000 bio mcq questions before i get full marks..rite mich..sigh i'll organise a chalet for all of us n we'll have a girl talk again..think all of us need that now..it really makes yu feel a litle better when yu talk to someone..although that someone won't be able to help you most of the time..but anyhow..everyone just take care and sleep well - especially to my dearest class owls..the 3 am species..rite pam n xinyee.. haha bye~