Innerpeace

hello~!!! today's a happy day today's a happy day~!! ok let's see why..

reached home at maybe 8.30 or so..bathed..talked cock to sis..scrutinised my ever-huge-popping-out-like-nobody's-business pimples on my forehead..till abt 9.30..n sat at my study table..thought of how much work i have to do..then was like..shit..wad to do now..oh..practise piano!! n there i go..throwing all my work to one side again..off to practise piano..haha i do that to destress n get away from reality..n then..10.30!!! america's top model!!!

n now it's 11.30..show just ended..n my heart is screaming "i wanna blog!!!" though i know i have have have to do some work tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit..i'm here.

America's Top Model so totally rocks!!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh it's an all girls' reality show..when they get eliminated one by one..yu also feel the pain cos they have so much potential!!! elyse was eliminated off!!!!!!!!! arghhhhh she's so damn stylish yu know..i really dun see what's worng with being smart just that she cannot be cocky..n having seen what the contestants have to go through for the past dunno how many months..i envy them so so much as well as feel for them cos it's really a tough job..gotta be good at practically everything!!! this is really a tough competition..n i was sad shannon din win cos she really totally blew me off at that fashion show..i was like jaw-dropped and WAahhhhh..she's so good at modelling and catwalking and carries herself so damn well n looked fabulous!!! no no i love adrieanne too..(did i spell her name correctly??) that monochromatic picture on the background behind the judges when she was announced the winner..thot it was so so good..n i gotta admit she looked very very good in ALL her pictures..shannon din..yeap..i'm happy for her..oh well..just that after this show..there's not much publicity of her n make it feel like it's just another reality show all over again..i dunno..maybe it's a big hoo haa in america..haha she's still too tomboyish and not classy enough sometimes..heh

yu know..watching this show made me start fantasizing all over again..i used to fantasize a lot when i was primary 5, 6..secondary sch to sec 4 onwards..n now in jc..haha too much work till i've no time n energy to fantasize cos reality is so harsh!! but nvm..t least i know how to relax..n perhaps i'm slacking too much..well..nowadays i actually fantasize abt being a model..ever since j1..i had dreamed abt being a model haha..ok this may be really bimbo..but hello!! every girl has their this girlie n bimbo side..n like adrieanne..i really think being a model is so cool n like everyone is looking at yu n yu feel like a princess!!! right..now this is the jessica yu never knew..haha i'm even more unbelieveable..sheesh sometimes i'll catwalk in front of the full length mirror in my parent's room..then just now i was so inspired n affected by the show..i was posing n slanting my face at different angles in front of my bathroom mirror..haha so silly!! sigh i just like to look really good..dress stylishly and be able to carry myself with confidence..
i've a long way to go..

conclusion of the day: i can only live in my dreams..i simply cannot make it..n my hair is in such a bad state now!! love shannon's hair haha..

wake up..now back to reality..i shall read my dearest electronics notes n perhaps get my beauty sleep..

did i tell yu i was so on abt training today?? haha so much more awake n like baorong said..was feeling the ball and yeap..running n playing good!! 2 more training sessions before my big day..muakz~ good nite pple