Innerpeace

couldn't continue with tutorial..dun even know whether i need to hand it up..in a very distracted state..miss him a lot..n sorta thinking abt my 2003..2004..

shit it's damn scary..time really flies!!! i mean like a jet plane..i hate it..j1 life has really been very interesting..cool..unforgettable..still can remember orientation..being stuck at hwa chong..going gaga over how good looking david is..n pple in rj will say how james is better looking..haha then me growing to love hwa chong..getting confused abt which sch to go..in the end came to rj..took some time to know pple..and to fit in..n then came training..playing..eye-candy craze and finally having self-control..settled down to do some serious mugging..n eventually got the results i wanted..12 months..just like that..it's gone..i'm stoning now..thinking abt all the frens i have in rj..thinking abt how they've affected my j1 life..thinking abt my class..thinking abt how many times i've broke down this year cos i feel so stressed and shit..thinking abt how beautiful my birthday and otehr special days had been..

wonder how i've changed..matured and grown over this year..will j2 life be really as hectic as what the teachers say..will 2004 cause me more pimples and worse eye bags..will i be even more mugger..sheesh..i just wanna remain the way i am now..i like it..tian likes it..not perfect but i guess it's fine..will 2 S-papers kill me..did i over-estimate myself and make the wrong choice..how will As be..will i do as badly as i did for Os..so many questions..

i'm just like that..forever impatient..always thinking so far away..worrying for nothing sometimes..but i just want an answer..i wanna know what will happen..

haha my sister just sighed and said..gotta pack bag already..i wonder how my first day in sch as a j2 will be..god pls make my 2004 beautiful..and may i grow to become a better person in the year to come..to all my frens..best wishes and no matter what yu do..always be happy..

listening to liang jing ru's album by dawn for christmas..i love it so so much..i wanna thank dawn a million times..her voice is simply beautiful..