Innerpeace

yes i'm missing out so much stuff..haven being online for quite a while..no time man..gotta practise piano every nite..cos teacher juz keep teachign n teaching n me being such a slow student who simply lack talent..gotta practise damn damn long n many times to get one page rite..arghhh..nvm..i'm still hanging on..n mugging for promos now..sarah's stressing me out..everyone's so good at physics now except me..jin yi's physics is like shen2 now..gosh i betta buck up..seem to be slacking away like nobody's business..

n where did tt mugssica come from..gosh so nan2 ting1..jamie..must yu call me that..mugger sounds nicer..n wadeva i admit man..yea i'm the slave driver..as well as the slave..as well as e mugger..why dun pple realise that i go out much more than them..hah they're the real closet muggers..mug n dun wan to admit..so typical..n irritating..mug then mug la..so many pple mugging in sch early in the morning at 8 while i'm still in bed..crazy..i'll juz go back to sleep again man..like today mugging at home..slept in between..afternoons..for about 3 hours in total..oh well..yes i'm a pig too..

my pw's screwed..we're stagnant..no one's doing anything..no one seem to bother..fine we shall meet everyday then..but i carn make it~!!!! pple why dun yu all reply to my messages..it's like 6 messages in total..n meet online n do the evaluation form..why doesn't any one do it??? gosh why am i always the one doing n pushing pple to do..i'm veh tired of that le..i need more time to study..dun have much energy to spare to worry about pw man..godness i hate myself..but come to think about it..if i really dun care n dun arrange meetings n assign tasks./our project is gone leh..that's the seriousness..nvm..nobody cares aniwae..sigh

interact camp ended yesterday..whole 2 day camp..a real active one..n yu really carn afford to be sleepy or sian cos the group needs the volunteers to psyche up the children and encourage them to participate actively in the games..i had a hard time..yea end up swinging a guy onto the floor while playing handicapped basketball..n got scolded fo being so hyper..sigh nvm they wun understand y i keep shouting n screaming n smiling though i'm so tired n sometimes really depressed cos i carn get all the children to participate in the games..it's all for the kids..aniwae build many new relationships with the children and my fellow group volunteers..pple like he qi..jiaying..rebecca and eunice..very nice pple..it's like yu always see some pple around in sch but never talk to each other cos there's no chance of interaction..so i really gotta thank this camp for letting me know so many more pple..n it was really fun overall..learnt volleyball n stuff..got to know how these children actually feel about their lives...i thank mich and jamie for persuading me to join the camp..it;'s really an eye-opener and an enriching experience..

there's this girl in my camp..her boyfriend got into some trouble with the law and had to go to court today..i wonder how he is..n the girl's very sad..cos he'll either go to jail..or be sent to malaysia (he's a malaysian) or he's going australia to study..she told me though this is not her first boyfriend..n there're only together for about 7 mths..their relationship is the strongest and she knows that he's the one whom she can really trust..i was very sad for her n lost for words..i'm so sorry i couln't help her in any way but to console her..n tell her to get on with life n tt she still can keep in touch with him..yu should see the look on her face..haiz so young n hafta go through such trauma..god bless yu diana..

charlie chan juz reminded me that it's only 3 weeks after the hols to promos..gosh can i finish revising..wad do i exactly hafta do? how to go about revising?? really hope someone can guide me to revise the right way so that i dun waste time..cos i really dun have much left..haha sound like i'm dying soon..have been meeting tian almost everyday..like today..though i;'m supposed to spend my tim studying..but i'm so glad to meet him..he looks good to me everyday n when i see him n he holds my hand n i lean close to him..i feel totally relax n it's like my worries all flow away..today i was very stressed out after chan's class cos i carn do stationary waves..tian totally calm me down..haiz but gotta study n carn meet him everyday la..nvm i can do it myself..yea i'll do wad i'm best at..sleep to relax..sigh

time to go..pple enjoy the last 5 days of holiday..new SARS case alert..haha someone said maybe they'll close schs down n exten hols cos of SARS again..hah my ass la..yu go on dreaming man..haiz but i really hope to dream..good nite pple~!